Jack Stuart Hanson

HAPPY 7TH BIRTHDAY TO MY SPECIAL LITTLE MAN HOPE U ARE HAVING LOTS OF FUN PLAYING ON THOSE BIG FLUFFY CLOUDS MUMMY MISSES YOU SO MUCH NOT A DAY OR HOUR GOES BY THAT YOUR NOT IN MY HEART AND THOUGHTS.XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX BORN 11.11.O2 LEFT THIS WORLD 27.01.03 JACK STUART HANSON.JACK WAS BORN ON 11.11.02 TO PROUD AND LOVING PARENTS CLAIRE AND PHILIP.SISTER CHLOE 9 AND NOW HAS A YOUNGER BROTHER THOMAS AND SISTER EMILY WHO KNOW ALL ABOUT THE WONDERFUL AND COUREGOUS BROTHER.JACK WAS BORN A POORLY LITTL MAN WHO SPENT THE PRECIOUS 3MTHS OF HIS LIFE IN THE NEONATAL UNIT OF HALIFAX LGI AND ST JAMES.HE WAS SADLY TAKEN FROM US 27.1.03 FROM AN UNKNOWN ILLNESS THAT EVEN THE CONSULTANTS DID NOT UNDERSTAND.MUCH LOVED AND GREATLY MISSED GRANDSON OF NANA DAWN AND GRANDAD HOWARD XXXXXX. Our special little man.why?the questions we ask every single day but yet have no ansewrs.when me and your daddy found out that i was expecting you we where on cloud nine couldnt wait to let the world know.we already had your older sister chloe,but had struggled to concieve so after trying we got refered for ivf.so we where totally over the moon after our first lot of help we ffound i was expecting at just 7days.everything was going perfect we went for scans every couple of weeks and as soon as the danger period was up that was it me and your nana dawn went crazy buying buying and more buying your big sister chloe was so excited she helped choose everything when we went for the 20wk scan they told us you where perfect and a boy your daddy was over the moon and straight away choose the name jack i didnt have a say. and so the dreadfull day things took a turn for the worse i was 34wks pregnant getting so excited i stood up in the front room an my waters went so daddy started to panic and took me straight to hospital,after couple of hours i was finally examined by Then given an internal and told my waters hadnt gone and that i had just wet myself but i kept trying to tell them me as a mum knew the difference between passing urine and my waters going ut they really wasnt intrested and evenhad high blood pressure but they where busy so i could go home and go back day after to be monitored.So i went back the next day put on the monitor they couldnt get proper trace,so they left my husband holding it in place for an hour before they came back and told me to go home.still not happy i kept going back with bad pain to my back an lack of movement but felt ignored.when i was 38wks i rang the hospital again with no fetal movement i went to the hospital at11am, with a friend of mine after no proper trace and 2 consultants debating wether i needed an emergency section i was sent to matrnity,my husband was on his way from that time until 4 0clock i kept telling them the contractions where pain full but nobody listened when my husbang arrived he was told there was nothing wrong as you can imagine he was angry and demanded a scan.wihin the next hour our life was to totally change i was in theatre having ecs.you where born at6.26pm our beautiful little man we heard you cry your daddy crying too as the nurse passed you to your proud daddy another took you away before i could see you. You had turnd blue you where taken to the neonatal unit.you had been born in green water through all the stress of having infected water. Your daddy came to see you as soon as he could he came back clutching a photo tears in his eyes we where told you where having problems breathing and was on a ventalator.the pain i was feeling was unberable.the next few days where a blur family came and visited your sis brought u you first teddy she was totally in love with you but didnt understand what was going on she was only four.on day three we where told to be prepared for the worst we got you baptised and every body said ther good byes.but you still carried on fighting your nana dawn called you her little solider because you carried on fighting but from day one your daddy kept insiting that your colouring of skin and urine was that yellow there was no way it could be jaundise but was told they where the medical proffession and it was jaundice nothing to do with your liver which in fact later on we discover it was and they dont always no best.At 10days you where taken to leeds because the hospital still didnt have ansewrs the staff at the lgi where great.They soon detectated you had ia liver problem.so again moved to jimmys we spent 10wks by your side you sent the nurses hearts a flutter with your amazing smile you loved to have your music playing.the machines and medical words no longer scared us as we understood them.chloe loved visiting but found it hard when she saw you in pain like us she wonted to hold you and have you home.all the staff where amazing even the consultants called you solidier because you where so strong.you had lines daily for all your mediation antibiotics morphine, you had heart surgegy to close your duct,lines in your belly to drain your fluid,lumber puncture,liver and lip biopsys,blood and platelett tranfusions canulas every few hours for your drugs they even shaved you beautiful black hair to put lines in your scalp Yet you never once stopped smiling.but still no ans to what was wrong with you and making you suffer so much when you had so much love to give.the only thing that was an ansewr was you had got an infection while inside without any water so i hope you dont blame me my special little man i did try tell them something wasnt right but nobody listned. On new years eve after your heart surgery things seemed to get better you came of your medication the venalator everybody got so excited therewas light at the end of the tunnel chloe told everybody at school her little brother was coming home but that dreadful day 25th jan came when we where told you where ill again this time we knew nothing could be done we where takin into the parents room and told if you went back on the ventalator you would only last 24hrs.our hearts where broken the next few hrs passed in a daze nana dawn grandad howard brought chloe to see you again she was so happy.friends and family came too say goodbye.in the early hrs of the night you where back on the ventalator we sat by your side it was now the 27th jan.we knew you didnt have long left but couldnt let you go with all those machines and wires so we had you taken of the machine me daddy and nana dawn washed and dressed you you looked a right bobby dassler and wrapped in your blanket holding your teddy your big sis got you we went into the parents room. Our special little man nana dawn and daddy got to hold you tight i squeezed you so hard i didnt wont to let you go you wher still smiling daddy sang to you your favourite song like he always did when you where down the grand old duke of york.you left our wold 5hrs later and like the special little man you where you opened your eyes gave us a wonderful smile and feel asleep.our world was torn in two the pain in my heart is still ther time is no healer but i thank god that we still have 12wks wonderful memories of you i just hope you understand that i didnt wont you to leave this world covered in wires i wonted you to have dignity and be surround by love.love you so much your daddy nanadawn and grandad howard where my rock but the one person who gave me strenght was you big sis chloe.she picked a star that she calls "JACK" and says good night every night,so until i can hold you on my arms and see your amazing smile know one thing your always in our hearts and thoughts sweetdreams xxxxxxxxxxxxx the next few days passed in a dae i never belived it when people say you get a pain in your heart but this i know no to be true we came to see you every day at the chapel of reat leaving photos teddies nana dawn left you a car as she always said when you came home she would buy you your first car,the day of your funeral is a blur i do remember it snowing and the amount of people that came to say goodbye daddy was so string for mummy he held you tiny coffin so close not wonting to let you go ,we love you little man and always will.We tried to get justice for our little man but hit our head against a wall as whenwe asked to see my notes from the day i went with my waters going to the day my littleman was born there was no notes,and the copy of his apgar score was photo copied an d showed at 1,5,10 mins he was a perfect 9 how was this when he was blue and couldnt breath i was later to find out that my consultant was suspend during my pregnancywhile under investigation and this wasnt the first time but with no notes we couldnt bring him justice but do pray this doesnt happen to any body else. 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